68. REALISING THINGS

Well, Esther is now getting on better with Adam, they've been laughing at class, and it seems that Imogen doesn't like this at all. Esther doesn't have the fault that now Adam is sitting next to her. Besides, in the break Imogen wanted to follow them, and at that moment that was really awkward and stupid to Esther. And she got mad, bufff. Later she wanted to go to “The Sylvan” and her mother caught them, sooner or later this was going to happen, as she works near that bar... The night's been weird, first of all Maureen introduced to Esther, one guy from her town, 'cause they're visiting them and hanging out together. Secondly, Esther met Ralph, Troy's friend, who's been talking for a while, explaining her all that had happened with the group, and by the way he's not going out with them anymore, but with other guys who Esther met in that moment. One of them was kind of nice to her and they were flirting all the time. But suddenly the girls showed up, telling her to change the place, not even asking what she wanted to do, what resulted in a worse night and Esther a bit mad, of course, she wanted to be with that boy. Here is the question, is always this decision: if you have to choose between being with your friends or being with a boy, who could turn into something cool, what would you do? Obviously, Esther doesn't want to lose her friends, but she also wanst to have fun with a boy..

57. MAD DAY

What an awful weekend, especially `cause when the girls were gossiping, they’ve said that Alvin likes Cindy and wants to ask her for a date. Again the old same story, can this be possible?This girl is always in the way. Meanwhile putting up with Imogen, since she had been drinking before alone, alone?Why does she drink alone, anyway?That’s sad. Well, the thing is that, while they were going in the way to the pubs, some of them have to stop because she’s begun to bring up, including Ge’ne and his boyfriend, complaining all the time. That doesn’t help. Yet, in the pub, Esther can see the new relation between Alvin and Cindy, that’s disgusting for her. How can a person changes its mind like that??´Til both of them get involved. After that the silly Cindy is going towards Esther to ask her about that: -`are you kidding me?´?-answered Esther-`you’ve already kissed him´. Still with the dumb face Cindy doesn’t know what the exact answer is. Just amazing: -`Whatever Cindy, do whatever you want, obviously this guy is an asshole for me´ And there she goes again with another lout. Esther gets so annoyed that the more she drinks the more she wants. Then, some hours later Elmer shows up, and again, not knowing how, they get involved. But Esther realises soon the horrible mistake she’s having and leaves the pub as quickly as possible. Even though she’s not that drunk , still mad. When she gets home, writes down in her diary, she really needs to get out of her system, she feels so let down, and disappointed by Cindy, but maybe is not all her fault, but she could have rejected him, right??And no one else cares about that, it is true that it seems silly and perhaps she didn´t like Alvin that much, but apparently that was in her head, not in the heart, she can’t control it.