Wednesday, October 25, 2017


Today Esther had new clothes to go out, the gifts! Imogen’s got drunk because she always drinks alone in the Sylvan, since Esther told her that she was not going there anymore, anyway… They have to put up with her, because besides when she’s drunk she’s even ruder (if possible), until she began to talk to a guy about philosophy and the girls decided to leave her with him, hahaha. They’ve run into Becky and when Esther told her what they had done, Becky got annoyed by that, “what? But these people who don’t know anything, why do they have to give their opinion??” She wanted to get Imogen, so Esther cheered her up laughing to go out with her then. Later, of course, they’ve seen Luke and Co., Esther lately talks a lot to a friend of him ‘The Quiet’ and debating about Maureen’s thing until she heard them and all blushed left with Ivy, and they left her alone. Esther felt like they don’t have sense of humour. Going home she saw Imogen, who was still drunk and scared her fooling around, she also said that Jay and George were around, and to follow them. Then in a pub they were with Hugh and his friends, joking and making jokes of Imogen, not even noticing it… Esther had to tell her and they both left because that was too much…

Monday, June 12, 2017


What a huge telling off has been today. And just because Imogen takes it into her head to be blue. So Esther has had to go to her house with Wendy, why? ‘Cause Imogen has phoned her saying that Esther didn’t want to see her, and that she’s her best friend, what a tricky and twisted behaviour. Anyway, there they have been, the 3 of them doing nothing and then to party at her house and say goodbye to this year, and everybody happy, conclusion: Imogen is a damn changeable fussy liar and besides ungrateful; you have to leave anything you have to do to please her whims. Yeah, maybe, going through the divorce of their parents is hard, the fact that he’s never around, and her mother is all the time working, which leads her to want attention from other people like her “friends”, and just because she doesn’t have siblings, she needs company, but even though Esther is aware of that, she already has her own life, with her yelling parents, arguing all the time, as well as their sisters, but she doesn’t ask for all the attention, as her friend, making her selfish and a lot of negative energy she gives off. Yet, in the night, Esther was still mad, and she said she didn’t want to be with Imogen, and the big telling off began, until a guy got in the middle to calm things down. In the end Maureen, Ivy and Esther left, and they had fun. Even Maureen talked to Luke. Going back home, they run into Wendy, who was dressed up (“Is it carnival??”), who was quite annoyed with Esther for leaving her alone with Imogen: “- What are you talking about?”- asked her Esther-“you’ve decided to be with her” Wendy-“I had no alternative” Esther-“Oh come on! You guys are always complaining about her, but do nothing at all, and the one who most spends the time with her it’s me!! Only me!! Because you see her and run away! Wendy- “you’re always the victim here, but you should have more empathy towards her, ‘cause she has feelings too” Esther – “Are you serious?? You really think I have no empathy?? You should be kidding, really, we’ve stopped doing our things today, and I had to be with my grandma, help my mum with errands, the New Year’s Eve dinner, and my own stuff, to do NOTHING this afternoon, just pleasing her for NOTHING, I’m sick and tired of her. You go, everywhere she tells you, and just whenever she wants, and do JUST all that she wants, come on! I’ll pass her to you, and be her BFF, all yours! And if this wasn’t enough, another one in the middle, Phoebe, Maureen’s sister, saying that she’s had a lot of fun with Imogen. “-Great!! Go out with her then…”-


This week has been horrible, what a cold Esther had! At least she felt better at the weekend, and when Maureen phoned her, she told her about everything that had happened. When they went out Imogen brought hash, because of some contacts. She definitely surprised the girls. It was a long time that they didn’t have that kind of plan, which makes Esther being sleepy and silly, whereas her friends had been joking around, even when they saw Adam, who left astonished. Esther was having lots of fun with Imogen, talking about Luke, they both think they scared him, ‘cause he also left appalled. Maureen felt embarrassed, not knowing where to hide, but the girls cheered her up. Later they run into JM and his friends, and one of them was making fun of Esther, she felt really annoyed about that, it reminded her to that past she didn’t want to remember ever in her life, all those humiliating days, putting up with cruel and mean behaviour from people who didn’t like her way of be. Now, she finally could be almost whoever she wanted, because she had real friends, who accept her in every way. But that doesn’t mean that some guys, or people, still like teasing other people to feel better with themselves, so sad…


In spite of the bad situation with Imogen, today is her birthday, so let’s celebrate it! However, Esther stood her up because she wanted to meet at the Sylvan, and there they were arguing, saying to Imogen that she was not going, she felt stupid going there. 10 minutes later she called again, apparently she was wrong, and was not a party in the pub, whatever… So, in the end she met with her other friends and they hung out, following Luke and Jay…so fun! When she run into Archy, he couldn’t stop laughing with her, because definitely when Esther is drunk she’s really fun. He was with Alan, and the girls totally understood at the moment Imogen’s crush for him. So there they were spending the time ‘til Imogen showed up all mad, she spent more than an hour waiting for her in the pub, and Esther was answering her that she’d already told her that she was not going, whether it was a party or not… Just afterwards they saw Becky with her boyfriend, who had a surprisingly relation fighting and arguing all the time, Lester said to Esther that was common, that they were all the time like that, “- ok! If you like that…( Esther really hates arguing and all that stuff, but she could see while the life was passing by, that some people actually like arguing…-“ Obviously they ended up talking about Derek, even though she doesn’t want to know anything about him, and his stories with her girls, drugs, or whatever…


What an amazing day at class! Obviously Imogen was there, next to Alan, who couldn’t stop talking to him and teasing him. The guy was getting blushed and shy, and Archy and Esther were laughing about that, but of course not aloud. Anyway, in the end the teacher after 3 times warning her, kicked Imogen out, asking for her not to come back again. The unbelievable surprise is that Imogen went on the defensive and acted really rude, telling Esther to defend her, but she passed. When Esther was with her classmates at lunch, they asked her why she was friend of Imogen and to give a damn about her- “If she could…” Today it was one of Confirmation last course. Afterwards they all went to have a drink, which it’s been cool. Later Esther, Maureen and Ivy had a serious conversation about Imogen because nobody can stand her, she’s so mean, tiring, weird, and so many negative things…, but they don’t know how’s going to end. At least the rest of the night was ok, meeting lots of people and again having fun with Luke’s friends.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017


What a crap of a Saturday! Esther was going out really happy with her new orange cool coat. The plan of the night was obviously the same as usual, following Luke and his friends,” funnyyyy!!” But at least, the girls find out that they have nicknames, truth is, that was the funniest of that night. Specially because after all that, Esther saw all the boys that she likes with their girlfriends: Derek, Troy, Alan,… (well, she doesn’t know about Alan, but he’s definitely really handsome and it’s always great to see him)In a pub, they were talking with some guys, and when they were leaving to another pub, Esther found out that her coat wasn’t there. What a f***ing bad luck! The thing is that she’d actually seen some gipsy girls, who looked quite bad, around it. Besides, that night was really cold! So, Esther was not going to go home like that, so that she stole another coat from a pub they don’t usually go. Maureen and Ivy were annoyed about that and told her off: “- but what the hell??? I don’t like this either! Come on! I never do these things, but what you want me to do? Get freezing?” Yet home Esther sees that the coat doesn’t have lots of things, though she feels guilty. She confesses writing in her diary that she’s not having a very good moment, Imogen bothers her all the time, there are bad moments also regarding love and everything, she’s so pissed off. Stealing that coat, gave her a feeling she never had: adrenaline. But not anymore.


Esther finds out, talking to Alan, that he has a girlfriend, so he has confidence enough to tell her those kinds of things. Anyway, Imogen saw them and she got totally mad, telling her that she likes him and wants to steal her boy; unbelievable!!! This girl is out of her mind, and what is she going to do with her girlfriend?? At the lunch, Alex cheered Esther up, who can’t understand why they are friends. These things are like this. Wendy and Esther are planning a cool Friday hanging out, when suddenly Imogen called her to apologize and also to inform her about a party in the Sylvan. So, at the end the only plan was that, and when Esther was going to leave towards the pub, Imogen just texted her that she was late, ahhh!!! This girl really makes her mad, more than anyone else in her entire life! Anyway, 40 minutes later there they were, with the group of people that frequent the pub, but not talking to them. However Imogen manages herself to stand out, how embarrasing! Because when this girl is drunk she’s a bit silly and ruder that in normal circumstances, and just as she’s not tall or anything… everybody could see her. So, seeing all this Esther decides to leave that stupid party. She’s beginning to realize that they’re too young to be there, at least for her, who has some sense of ridiculousness, not like Imogen, who doesn’t have a bit.


This week has been very homely, because Esther’s family gave her a warning to be more careful and collaborate with the house chores. Thank God that she has good times at high school. She’s been with Alan at class, who was very shy at the beginning, but later it’s been fine. Afterwards Wendy showed up with a friend and they have been hanging out, playing cards and so on. In the last class, she’s been with J.M., who was joking all the time, what a boy! Later, gossiping with Beryl and Alex going home. Esther went immediately to her bedroom to relax. But her mother called everyone, to say that they had been robbed at the shop. That was really shocking. Esther’s middle sister: Elspeth, has brought a movie and after dinner all the family together have been watching it. Esther couldn’t remember the last time they did something like that, but for the first time she felt good with her family, apart from all the differences between them.


Esther’s been drinking today too much, it’s been even embarrassing because she’s seen Henry, though he was laughing out loud, so at least she’s funny when she’s drunk. So much that she got his phone number, Esther was really happy for that, and her friends freaking out because of her behaviour. Jay caught her up when she was following him, but she doesn’t care, because she’s also seen Alan, yehaaa!!! So after all this crazy and wild night, at the end, as it’s said, you have to throw up what you drink in anyway, so gross… and regarding Esther that happened just suddenly, in the middle of the street. But the good thing is that a boy, who was passing, tried to cheer her up and even gave her some earrings, kind of funny! Afterwards she tried to feel better, drinking a lot of water, and then she run into Ge’ne , they told each other a lot of stuff, even that she’s still dating Aidan, what a dumb girl! After all he did… What Esther was not expecting at all, is that she lost her keys and had to ring home. What a telling off from her parents!!And they do have a reason, with that awful wasted face that Esther had.


There’s a good feeling at class, Imogen is more relaxed, but she likes getting blushed to Alan, that’s fun, hahaha, though for him not. However it doesn’t seem to bothers him too much. The bad thing is that sometimes she says really seriously and dramatically to Esther not to like her his boy “excuse me???” after that order from Imogen, Esther got a bit annoyed, she even warns her to spend more time together, what’s that supposed to mean?? Esther took a long time to appreciate the good company and friends, and for her those statements from Imogen were not coming from a true friend. The good side of Esther’s confirmation course is that she’s surprisely having fun with all the new people. How not! There’s a handsome boy called Henry, even though he’s a joker, and she doesn’t like that at all. There’s been a dinner, so a lot of fun. Later Esther has met with her friends, it was a bit sad ‘cause she was talking to a group of nice guys, but not very nice for the girls, so she was not going to be alone with them. After that she put pressure on Maureen about Luke, that’s not common at all, but it is for them, she just wants to help, but Maureen doesn’t see it that way, she needs time.