93. HAVING A GOOD TIME

This week has been horrible, what a cold Esther had! At least she felt better at the weekend, and when Maureen phoned her, she told her about everything that had happened. When they went out Imogen brought hash, because of some contacts. She definitely surprised the girls. It was a long time that they didn’t have that kind of plan, which makes Esther being sleepy and silly, whereas her friends had been joking around, even when they saw Adam, who left astonished. Esther was having lots of fun with Imogen, talking about Luke, they both think they scared him, ‘cause he also left appalled. Maureen felt embarrassed, not knowing where to hide, but the girls cheered her up. Later they run into JM and his friends, and one of them was making fun of Esther, she felt really annoyed about that, it reminded her to that past she didn’t want to remember ever in her life, all those humiliating days, putting up with cruel and mean behaviour from people who didn’t like her way of be. Now, she finally could be almost whoever she wanted, because she had real friends, who accept her in every way. But that doesn’t mean that some guys, or people, still like teasing other people to feel better with themselves, so sad…

89. GETTING TIRED

Esther finds out, talking to Alan, that he has a girlfriend, so he has confidence enough to tell her those kinds of things. Anyway, Imogen saw them and she got totally mad, telling her that she likes him and wants to steal her boy; unbelievable!!! This girl is out of her mind, and what is she going to do with her girlfriend?? At the lunch, Alex cheered Esther up, who can’t understand why they are friends. These things are like this. Wendy and Esther are planning a cool Friday hanging out, when suddenly Imogen called her to apologize and also to inform her about a party in the Sylvan. So, at the end the only plan was that, and when Esther was going to leave towards the pub, Imogen just texted her that she was late, ahhh!!! This girl really makes her mad, more than anyone else in her entire life! Anyway, 40 minutes later there they were, with the group of people that frequent the pub, but not talking to them. However Imogen manages herself to stand out, how embarrasing! Because when this girl is drunk she’s a bit silly and ruder that in normal circumstances, and just as she’s not tall or anything… everybody could see her. So, seeing all this Esther decides to leave that stupid party. She’s beginning to realize that they’re too young to be there, at least for her, who has some sense of ridiculousness, not like Imogen, who doesn’t have a bit.

69. THE DARK SIDE

Today there weren't all the assingments, Imogen hasn't come, so Esther's gone with Stelle for a walk, who's been thinking to make a sèance. Apparently things are going quite bad with his boyfriend and she was sad. They've gone to a school a bit far away and there they've been enjoying that time, even though it's a bit shivering, because they were, both alone, in the dark, with sudden movements of trees around and even the bin fell down. During the sèance very weird things there were showed, but they'll see if it's true or not. The most strange thing of all, and real, is that Aidan phoned her and met together, until that moment Esther didn't realise how close they were. What has been even more surprising is that they were going to the premises to drink alcohol and smoke joints, but Esther was not in that mood,so she left “seriously??? At 6 pm on Tuesday???” Walking home she's met Wendy, who was with another girl, enjoying her day off, and told her gossips about Imogen, that Esther didn't know at all. Maybe that's the reason she's so unloving. Esther writes down this in her diary: she feels lucky for having friends, and Imogen is very trustful, but sometimes she has doubts of her and the rest of her friends, how to know if they're good friends? Of course, they have lots of fun, but there are other things apart from that, like, for example these gossips, somebody is saying at school that she's lesbian, is is true??? It could be so weird, why is not saying it? And people call her froggy-face, but even from childhood. That's quite funny to Esther, and it shouldn't, but she does, and doesn't feel like they're that close anymore. It's ironic, because she also lived horrible things in her childhood, teasings, jokes, and so on, but that's back, maybe she could ask her things, but probably, that's something you never say to anyone, it's really embarrasing.