76. GOSSIPS A full day of arguments. After class Esther’s been joking with Adam. Now they’re together very often. Why it will be? ( but she actually knows the reason). During the break, Betty has had a fight with a girl because she’d been with Ozzie, thanks Godness Esther doesn’t go out with them anymore. In the way of all of this was Stelle, ‘cause they’re now very good friends. It seems at the end the group’s been dividing. That’s what she has been explaining to the class and then later Ge’ne’s got mad at Esther telling her off. “- Seriously??? Ge’ne and her silly things” When Esther was having a rest from all the mess, not knowing why suddenly it’s been another fight between 2 guys of the class, one of them is friends with Maisie, it does not sound good… After all this Glen’s called Esther and they’ve met for that afternoon. At least Imogen apologized, by her way of course, for the last weekend behaviour. Going home with Wendy, they enjoyed gossiping about all and this means the strange good relation with Adam, wondering why, the sudden separations in the girls group, how everything can change in the twinkle of an eye and maybe even for worse. But at least it was not her business; she prefers to focus on her new love relation which gives her hope to believe that life can be more and better than she thinks, and not to see things in black.

69. THE DARK SIDE

Today there weren't all the assingments, Imogen hasn't come, so Esther's gone with Stelle for a walk, who's been thinking to make a sèance. Apparently things are going quite bad with his boyfriend and she was sad. They've gone to a school a bit far away and there they've been enjoying that time, even though it's a bit shivering, because they were, both alone, in the dark, with sudden movements of trees around and even the bin fell down. During the sèance very weird things there were showed, but they'll see if it's true or not. The most strange thing of all, and real, is that Aidan phoned her and met together, until that moment Esther didn't realise how close they were. What has been even more surprising is that they were going to the premises to drink alcohol and smoke joints, but Esther was not in that mood,so she left “seriously??? At 6 pm on Tuesday???” Walking home she's met Wendy, who was with another girl, enjoying her day off, and told her gossips about Imogen, that Esther didn't know at all. Maybe that's the reason she's so unloving. Esther writes down this in her diary: she feels lucky for having friends, and Imogen is very trustful, but sometimes she has doubts of her and the rest of her friends, how to know if they're good friends? Of course, they have lots of fun, but there are other things apart from that, like, for example these gossips, somebody is saying at school that she's lesbian, is is true??? It could be so weird, why is not saying it? And people call her froggy-face, but even from childhood. That's quite funny to Esther, and it shouldn't, but she does, and doesn't feel like they're that close anymore. It's ironic, because she also lived horrible things in her childhood, teasings, jokes, and so on, but that's back, maybe she could ask her things, but probably, that's something you never say to anyone, it's really embarrasing.

53 ENJOYING THE COURSE

Going to class today, Esther met Hugh, who just begun to tease her because of Saturday, so much make up...drunk...and that stuff. Look who’s talking, fooling around (she never liked that)but it was kind of funny and not mean. In the classroom the students have been changed of place, and Imogen is with Adam, Esther has to sit down next to Duncan, who can’t stop moving, talking, making sounds....anyway, buff!!what a tiring guy. At the end the teacher tell her off a couple of times, her??!!!?, advising her that she’s not very well known in regards to the studies and all that. The thing is, that apart from that day, in the last weeks this is usual, and the teachers decided to change the places because of her –“excuse me??you’re not serious, are you?”- Apparently her look said that she was not kidding at all. The rest of classmates have fun of that. Meanwhile Imogen is passing notes to her making weird faces, but what???! During the break all the time talking about Adam, but Esther is beginning to be kind of tired of that silly story, though Imogen insisted that they’re going to be together pretty soon, and then Wendy show up, she almost catch them! Thanks to God that Esther has begun to talk about another thing. Not knowing how happened but, suddenly they realise that Hugh had said to all the class about Esther’s fashion last Saturday, and asking her to make photos because they didn’t believe that. Jus Amazing. Later while they were having lunch, Esther has asked Stelle what happened on Saturday after the fight, with no answer. Suddenly she saw Rudd getting in the way, so Stelle annoyed, leaves, just like that. Going home, Wendy asks Esther to go together with another classmate, and that afternoon they’re going to meet to get out their chest, eating some snacks, so cool....